Poem

Hiding (on my own)
May 2, 2007

I turn every direction but there is no place to hide
There is all this going on inside me that I can't escape
Everyone elses need of me--
be a leader, be a mom, be a wife
be a daughter, be a sister, be a friend
Just let me alone or let me out
Because I can't be all the those things
I can't even be me whoever that is
I get lost in all the things
And can't seem to find my way out

All the frustration and all the wanting
It just turns to anger
And then its the people closest to me that suffer
I don't have any patience and
I don't want all this emotion
Why can't I just hide
But where is that part of me
That everyone thinks is capable
Because I certainly can't find its label

And God stop pushing me where I don't want to go
I want a resolution not a reason
Cause obviously I'm good enough
Isn't everyone telling me so
In my questions is the answer
And in the answer my place to hide
Don't keep me from my Jesus
For He is where I want to be inside

He's the peace I'm not searching for
The place I am not hiding
The one I'm not asking for
Please find me, find me
Though I do not want found
I can't hide from you
Or bury what I'm feeling
Please help me with what your asking
Hiding or searching or finding
I can't do it on my own